Why I shouldn't try being someone else.

For a little while I had been led to believe that I had more bad qualities than others. It seemed the same to me too. I have always had a bad temper and a short fuse. Over the beginning of this year I have had some unpleasant experiences with a few people I had long believed to be my friends. Now in retrospect they seem more of back-stabbers. More about it later.

What leads me to today's post is an unpleasant experience. One of high expectations and failed commitments. I will not go into the details but it was rather disappointing.
At the same time it was a reassurance I found by the sudden turn of events on why I should not be unhappy with the way I am or what others say is bad about me. 

Let me pick on some of these friendly advice.

They say: You have a very bad temper and get upset about frivolous matters.
Me: I do have a bad temper but the getting upset about part is because I take my principles very seriously and I am passionate about what I do.
They: You worry about little things too much.
Me: Yes. The devil is in the details.
They: You should always smile.
Me: Smile is not the only emotion I know. I laugh, I cry, I am angry, I am indifferent, I am upset, I am bored, I am passionate and all of it shows in my face!
They: Can't change others.
Me: If you genuinely feel that way, why are you lecturing me?
They: You will drive away people if you are like this.
Me: I don't feel thrilled to be in the company of the daft.
They: Nobody cares about others.
Me: I am selfless and I am going to stay this way no matter what. I don't care if people recognize me for that or extol me for it. Frankly I don't care.


While this post may seem a bit condescending, I don't regret it. I can't be the popular guy, I can't be the sweet talking hunk, I can't be the oh-so-friendly chap.


I respect and love my friends and I have had a few excellent advices over the past few months. As for others who don't like my behaviour, you can be in the company your inept circle.

My never ending to-do list

Dear All,
Here is an actual request for you all. For those of you who care to read my blog entries (I probably will need to use only the fingers on one hand), here is a wonderful opportunity to bring in some excitement into my life. As a grad student who is too busy (actually most of that time is spent on FB, Orkut, GMail; yes GMail and Pidgin; don't worry about Pidgin, it's not a new social networking site), I have ran out of things to do. Atleast for now. So I invite you to add ideas to my to-do list. Any advice will do, just don't expect me to do it right away. If it is under my constraints, (financial, being any unemployed grad student is tough, and time) I will do them and thank you; just that thank you, I told you I am unemployed.
Hope to hear from you all soon.

A new domain and new posts

The intro

A new domain, a new blog. A mistake of forgetting to backup the Wordpress blogposts before I ended my hosting plan with Dreamhost. The service was great but I could no longer afford the service, atleast for now. Until I complete my studies and have a job, I will stick to Blogger's free service only paying for the domain hosting.

What will this new blog contain? There have been many people who have prophesied the end of personal blogs and proclaiming that social networking is the new method of sharing ideas and information. Maybe true, but in the vast ocean of the Internet, any information and any opinion is long lost in the minds though not the databse. So the answer to the question is 'I'm not sure'.

It does not matter if anyone reads a blog post or not, it gives the blogger the gratification of having expressed his/her ideas.