Why I shouldn't try being someone else.

For a little while I had been led to believe that I had more bad qualities than others. It seemed the same to me too. I have always had a bad temper and a short fuse. Over the beginning of this year I have had some unpleasant experiences with a few people I had long believed to be my friends. Now in retrospect they seem more of back-stabbers. More about it later.

What leads me to today's post is an unpleasant experience. One of high expectations and failed commitments. I will not go into the details but it was rather disappointing.
At the same time it was a reassurance I found by the sudden turn of events on why I should not be unhappy with the way I am or what others say is bad about me. 

Let me pick on some of these friendly advice.

They say: You have a very bad temper and get upset about frivolous matters.
Me: I do have a bad temper but the getting upset about part is because I take my principles very seriously and I am passionate about what I do.
They: You worry about little things too much.
Me: Yes. The devil is in the details.
They: You should always smile.
Me: Smile is not the only emotion I know. I laugh, I cry, I am angry, I am indifferent, I am upset, I am bored, I am passionate and all of it shows in my face!
They: Can't change others.
Me: If you genuinely feel that way, why are you lecturing me?
They: You will drive away people if you are like this.
Me: I don't feel thrilled to be in the company of the daft.
They: Nobody cares about others.
Me: I am selfless and I am going to stay this way no matter what. I don't care if people recognize me for that or extol me for it. Frankly I don't care.


While this post may seem a bit condescending, I don't regret it. I can't be the popular guy, I can't be the sweet talking hunk, I can't be the oh-so-friendly chap.


I respect and love my friends and I have had a few excellent advices over the past few months. As for others who don't like my behaviour, you can be in the company your inept circle.